Finding Calmness in the midst of a storm!!
Sometimes Life is always a rollercoaster when you have your hills and slopes. One moment life is amazing another moment there is nothing good about life. I guess that's whats making our life more meaningful and interesting.
I remember at the beginning of 2018 January just after celebrating the new year reality hit me that I was turning 21 years and so what am I going to do with my life. Being chased from home when I was 17 years at least I knew how to hustle here and there to have my food for a day. But at this moment I knew I needed to set my life to a sutain point that I wanted. So on that day I went on my knees and asked God to grant me at least a job.
The first month passed by it felt like a year, as most of the times I was sleeping without food, I was sleeping on the floor, no money to go to the toilet because in kibera you pay khs 5/ to go to the toilet unfortunately I was unable to afford that so I was going for credit till I was not allowed any more to access the toilet. I had to turn to something called flying toilet, this is pooping on a plastic bag then you throw it away. I know it is disgusting but what else could I have done and this is is still going on in kibera because sometimes you just don't have an alternative. During all this time there is only one thing kept me going and it was that I prayed to God to grant me a Job and so I was Optimistic that God will do it for me more so I was working really had I was going to my dance practice everyday even without eating, shoot videos with my crew and post them and still teaching the kids everysaturday. Everynight I was trying to reach everyone who could employ us.
One night this was in the beginning of march 2018, I received a call at night I received a call and it was from an Agency they wanted Dancers to help them promote a product in the malls around Nairobi. I was excited I said we are available even with out asking the payment I said we will be there the following morning. I called my crew mates shared the good news and the next morning we were at the agency offices. we walked 20 kilometers to get to there offices so we were sweating and our bodies were not smelling okay so we were told to sit outside. we waited for 8 hours for someone to talk to us. In the evening we were told we come tomorrow we start the job we were really good dancers.
We worked that whole month but when we finished the job we were not paid we were told the person who hired us was fired for some reasons. Oh my God, I knew at least I was going to get some money to sortout my life at least but here we were being told we are not getting the payment, we dint sign a contract and also I was lending the transport money that I was using o go to work. This led straight to depression. But in my depression, I was still telling my self my Hard work will one day pay of. During this time I learned to be patient. But now I dint even something to eat so slowly I was giving up on life.
Then again on another night, I remember I was crying I received a call from my best friend Collins saying that he has been called by an agency that safaricom people are coming to kibera the nextday and they wanted local dancers to entertain people. So we agreed that we will go. After our show everyone was amazed and so the Agency took us to work as safaricom part dancers to go all around the country. This helps me to be stable this when I bought my first bed, In paid all my credits and was even sending my parents some cash because I wanted to build good relationship. I saved for some months and I was able to move to at least a better place.
Life had less stress now. Then it came to a point where we could go to work for six months without coming back. I was sad always at this time because I was not seeing the kids that I was teaching and I felt if this continues I will lose my purpose because my purpose is those kids. I tried talking to the Agency but they said I should choose one ChezaCheza or safaricom. I chose ChezaCheza and my crew also chose chezacheza. it was not an easy decision to make. Because Chezacheza we dint know how we would make money but we knew that was our call. So again I went to talk to God and said I am giving all the control to Him.
Its a year and some months now since we left Dancing for safaricom, Children at chezacheza have grown troumendously. But still we are struggling to survive with the Decision we made especially at this time of corona things have been really tough but you know what I AM STILL OPTIMISTIC AND SUTAIN THAT THE FUTURE IS BRIGHT. I found my purpose, my peace, my motivation, the act of being patient, and the dream that I want to see chezacheza turn to always keep me going even when things are worse I want to see that dream come true one day and so I will never giveup. I believe all I go through is My preparation on the task God has placed before me.
Be encouraged that it will all be well just keep working hard, God will never allowe a challenge that you can not handle come your way. All the challenges your going through believe me you can conquer them and You will be victorious. #wewillbevictorious #we are winners